can yo spell PMS?

I know I'm getting close to TOM making a visit because I just made 2 pit stops, one at taco hell for a bean burrito and then to McDonald's for a fruit and yogurt parfait. Not horrible choices considering the options but the fact that I let my hormones decide what I would eat is disturbing. I don't think I would be so upset with myself if I had stuck to just having a protein shake for breakfast but no I had an actual hunger this morning and made scrambled eggs with cheese and ham in it this morning- I worked out good yesterday and this morning my body decided that I needed to eat. So if I want to stay within my calorie goal I guess I will be having tuna salad tonight- that and I need to get off my butt and get moving like I did yesterday.

that's all for now, tomorrow is weigh in day- thanks for reading.

** later the same day....
I did get off my butt and got on my treadmill for an hour getting me another 3 miles under my belt. Feeling better now about my food choices today but I don't plan to swing by any drive through any time soon but I don't know what my hormones might make me do ;)

While I'm thinking about it, do you have any suggestions for heart rate monitors or anything else to monitor how many calories are burned during a workout. I don't really trust the calorie thingy on my treadmill.

***** much later the same day....
I finished day 2 of the 30 day shred and tomorrow is weigh in day, lets see how this goes.

thanks again

Workin it

I actually got off my butt today and walked on my treadmill for a good hour and got in 3 miles- the tricky part is doing this again tomorrow and then the next day and the next day... you get the idea.
And then to push me even further I got down my collection of exercise DVD's and popped in the 30 day shred and remembered why I stopped doing it before but I WILL continue doing it again. I will NOT give up. I have invested too much time and money in myself and I AM WORTH IT!
Oh and I think I'm getting the hang of this "eating thing" with an actual fill, although I know I need more. Today I had oatmeal for breakfast, tuna salad for lunch, spaghetti and meatballs (turkey) and then a protein shake and only had a few issues with actual hunger - but I distracted myself by working out... not a bad trade.

thanks again for reading and for your helpful comments and input- I really do appreciate it.

Fills and hunger

When I got my fill the other day I asked my doctor how many calories I should try to keep at and he said that because every dietitian/nutritionist is different they don't like to set a calorie goal but instead to stick to 3 meals a day with 4oz of food and no snacking and to aim for or get above 90g protein. I was put on liquids for just one day and then back to real food, small bites, nothing to drink around meal time and chew chew chew. So yesterday I had my protein shake for breakfast and that kept me pretty full for a good 4 ours then my 4 oz for lunch and then again for dinner but I got hungrier sooner after lunch, like 2 hours later but I didn't snack I didn't eat again until dinner and 2 hours later I was still hungry and ended up having a Greek yogurt with a little bit of granola. By the end of the day after inputting all the food into MFP it said that I needed to eat more, that I had only consumed a little less than 600 calories... no wonder I was still hungry. So my fellow bandsters how and what do you eat? Should I actually be eating something for breakfast along with my shake to increase my calorie intake? Should I stick to my protein shake and then the 4 oz meals and deal with the in between hunger? Do I need to add another full meal?  I'm pretty sure that when I go back to the doctor in 2 weeks I will be asking for another fill- right now I'm at 4.5cc in a 10 cc band.

thanks for reading and thanks for the comments that you leave, I do read them and appreciate that you take the time to not only red my posts but also to comment on them.

TTT

Ten Things Thursday!

1. Got my first fill today. Found out that I actually had 3cc of fluid in my band already and they added 1.5 more bringing me to 4.5ccs

2. I have been on all liquids today because of my fill and have no energy- I get to eat again tomorrow, yeah!

3. I do not get along well with my surgeons scale- it said 199 and my scale says 195.2.... I think I will stick to my scale ;)

4. My boys (11 yr old twins) have been so great helping me with the 3yr old terrorizing princess- my mood has been pretty foul and they have jumped in to help me keep from doing something drastic

5. Right now I know I'm not hungry but my head hunger is telling me different- uggh

6. Watching Big Bang right now, one of my favorite shows!

7. Thinking about going back to work, not sure if I will do it but the thought and want to be with other adults is there

8. Really needing to get off my butt more often and get my body moving- anyone have a good exercise DVD they can recommend of a kinect game

9. I am not as annoyed with my husband as I was yesterday, but still slightly irritated

10. Grocery day tomorrow, should be fun having not "eaten" today and my hunger being guided by my brain.

thanks for reading

Needing to vent, please bare with me

OK, so I am very fortunate that I have been a stay at home mom for almost 4 years now to my daughter and I was also a SAHM back when my boys were babies. I love my job though the hours and pay sucks. I don't get much "me time" or adult time and I accept this. This was my choice- I'm not complaining- yet. In a previous post I mentioned that my husband is a recovering alcoholic. He goes to work comes home and usually goes to the bedroom to relax for a while then off to a meeting he goes only to come home after his meeting to eat dinner watch some TV and then off to bed.... so all in all he is in "dad mode" for about an hour or so, whereas I am on call for 24 hours a day. But still I'm not complaining- yet. I am happy that he is going to meetings- before he would be passed out in the recliner and not an active part of our family. I know that as time goes by he will be able to cope better and will not need to attend meetings on a daily basis.
now to my complaint- I know you've been waiting on pins and needles. This evening my children were being, well for lack of a better word- children. My boys were wrestling causing the dog to bark, my daughter was running around shrieking and laughing taunting our other dog. I during this time am sitting on my couch- TV off enjoying my mindless search on the Internet trying to find peace and quiet... no luck. My husband comes home about that time, fixes himself a plate for dinner (his meeting is the same time as our normal dinner time), grabs the remote turns on the TV to a volume level that makes me cringe and then complains that its too loud in the house and that he would like to come home to a quiet house once in a while.... uh, excuse me!?!? A quiet house? Keep dreaming! To keep from starting an argument all I could do was roll my eyes and go back to my computer. He did apologize but still- does he not think I would like to have some quiet time. (my quiet time is after everyone is in bed making for a late bedtime). And to top things off I am PMS'ing with monster hunger and tomorrow I get my first fill so somewhere inside my cluttered, noisy, irritable, nervous brain I decided to eat... not a lot and nothing considered "bad" but I had already reached my calorie limit for the day and then I go and fix myself a small plate of left overs and eat a corn bread muffin along with some other grazing of sweet items that I could scrounge up. Not much to choose from since I try not to buy that stuff anymore. But still.
OK, I think I'm done- sorry about my ranting babble, it was either type it out or eat more and then feel horrible later.
thanks for reading.

weigh in day

For the past week I have been fighting off the crud that my husband so generously shared with me and our kids. I think that I am finally over the worst part and have just a bit of congestion in my chest. But he and I did manage to duck out of the house on Saturday to enjoy a nice dinner to celebrate our anniversary- it's actually today (16 years). We normally get all dressed up and head to our favorite steak house (Vegas is loaded with them) but this year we kept it low key and headed to our favorite coffee shop that serves some of the best prime rib-  (aside from the fancy steak house).  It came with salad (got the dressing on the side and gave hubby all the croutons) served with choice of potato- I asked for steamed veggies instead but of course- no substitutions, so baked potato it was with just a pat of butter and choice of bread (gave that to hubby too). It was soo good. I enjoyed every bite until I realized I had eaten EVERY BITE- ughh, apparently I am still a member of the clean plate club. And the to add to the gluttony hubby and I enjoyed a wonderfully decadent chocolate eclair. It was soo good and though I felt like a stuffed pig I did not guilt myself. I enjoyed a nice dinner with my husband.
The next day I slept most of the day in an attempt to rid myself of the crud that was taking over my body- It did help that I had no real appetite so the calorie onslaught from the previous night was used for what little energy I had.
That brings me to today- weigh in day. I was a bit nervous to step on the scale for my official weigh in because I am a self admitted scale whore and step on that evil device multiple times a day and was sure I would see a gain but to my surprise and wonder i saw a loss- 196.4 YES!!!! I'll take it.
that brings my numbers to...... drum roll please......
Seminar in May: around 225
Day of surgery: 215.8 (- 9.2)
week 1 post op: 207.6 (- 8.2)
week 2 post op: 204.2 (- 3.4)
week 3 post op: 202.6 (- 1.6)
week 4 post op: 199.2 (- 3.4)
week 5 post op: 199.8 (+ .6)
week 6 post op: 196.4 (-3.4)
a total loss since surgery 19.4

I love my band!
Thanks for reading, I hope you have a great day.

Happy 2013, word for the year and weigh in day

Happy New Year! I hope that everyone brought in the new year safely with family and/or friends. I live in Las Vegas and celebrated in our usual style, snuggle up on the couch waiting for the clock to strike midnight so we could send the kids to bed and get some sleep ourselves.
2012 was a year of highs and lows, good and bad for me and I'm sure that 2013will be no different. But instead of heading to food to get me through as I have always done in the past I will find different ways to handle these situations and will persevere to my goal.

That brings me to my word for the year:

To keep with what seems to be a banded blogging tradition I have picked my word for the year:
Perseverance-
per·se·ver·ance
/ˌpɜr səˈvɪər əns/ Show Spelled [pur-suh-veer-uh ns]   

noun

1. steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., especially in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.

 

Meaning that no matter what the world throws at me I will continue in my course of action to become healthier. I know and accept that I will stumble and fall and even want to give up but I am worth this and I CAN do this.

And with today being Tuesday it is weigh in day- today I weighed in at 199.8 a small gain (+.6) but after all the food I indulged in over the Christmas I'm surprised it wasn't more.
So here are my numbers since surgery:
Seminar in May: around 225
Day of surgery: 215.8 (- 9.2)
week 1 post op: 207.6 (- 8.2)
week 2 post op: 204.2 (- 3.4)
week 3 post op: 202.6 (- 1.6)
week 4 post op: 199.2 (- 3.4)
week 5 post op: 199.8 (+ .6)
total loss since surgery 16