Saturday, November 3, 2012

Anxiously waiting for Monday

Why would anyone want to see Monday roll around?

One reason, the kids and the husband go back to school/work leaving me with the princess so that I can actually enjoy a little peace and quiet.

Second reason, I need to make sure that the weight loss center has all my paper work and for them to answer a few questions.

Perhaps some of you can help answer my main question.

You see, when I started this journey back in May I was about 225, I never really weighed myself for good reason- the mirror spoke volumes but today I caved and bought a scale and I've actually lost weight; not too much but I haven't been "actively" trying. I've cut out soda, caffeine and stopped my evening bowls of ice cream but I have not changed anything else- still too much pain in my back and laziness on my part to actually exercise. I'm afraid that if I lose too much weight I will no longer be a candidate for surgery. Is my fear justified? Should I hit the drive through to "bulk up"?
I have my share of medical issues including depression, anxiety, high blood pressure, pre-diabetes, sleep apnea and hypothyroidism to name a few - will the medical issues outweigh the weight loss, no matter how small I have had?

Don't get me wrong- I want to lose weight, but really, out of all the times in the past that I have sweated buckets and ate only salads to never see a change now when I am so close to getting the weapon to help knock out the fat do I actually lose weight.
Is this a good thing or a bad thing?