Weigh in day.

today is weigh in day- only .2 pounds down- but a loss is still a loss no matter how small. I am starting to feel more definition in my arms and legs so I'm hoping that the muscle is outweighing the fat.... I can hope right (look i finally painted my toes) Also my doctor said the weight loss will slow down as my body nears it's natural weight- plateau here I am.

In yesterdays post I had said I felt like there was a black cloud over my head and I thought it was due to lack of movement on my part but then I realized what date was coming up- today is the anniversary of my fathers passing- he's been gone 7 years and every year the black cloud come back. It will eventually lift and I will feel better about things, but it still hurts and I miss him everyday. I just hope that he is proud of me and my family.

I also said in yesterdays post that I was going to get off my duff and get my sweat on, but that didn't happen, instead I went to taco bell so I  spent 2 hours and 44 mins working out and burned 854 calories. take that you evil chicken burrito from taco bell that tasted oh so good yesterday even though it was 420 calories plus the bean burrito that was 370 calories. I can't believe I ate the whole thing, but I did and as yummy as it was it sat in my stomach like a brick. (why is it they NEVER look like their pictures)

 

I had never had their chicken burrito and it is my new favorite, so much so that I almost went back today, but I didn't I went home and made a nice tuna salad like a good bandster.

 

Well I think that's all for now. I am hoping that the cloud leaves soon so I can get my mind back to where is should be.

As always, thanks for stopping by- and remember a bad day does not define you, get up, dust yourself off and get back to sweating.



motivational Monday

It's bright and sunny outside yet I feel like I have a black cloud over my head causing me to be in a funk. I hate this feeling and I think I know why the black cloud is here. I didn't work out yesterday and have yet to today- I've had all the time in the world but just haven't got up on the treadmill. But I will- I promise. I need to so that this black cloud goes away.

Weekend recap: Friday I got my sweat on at the gym and felt awesome. On Saturday I worked out at home- stretching, hand weights, jumping jacks and the treadmill, 2 hours of sweating- felt so awesome. Then met up with my bestie for dinner at Sweet Tomatoes. She had not seen me since December and was thrilled with my loss; she on the other hand has been hiding away because of her weight gain- I remember those days all to vividly. Well she has decided to go through with the band. She has started the whole insurance hoops and hopefully by November she will have a surgery date. I'm so excited for her. Then on Sunday I dragged my husband to a time share presentation just so I we could get 2 nights at a hotel and 2 park hopper tickets to Disneyland... the things I do for free things. He was a sport about the whole thing. But by the end of the sales pitch we had been there almost 3 hours and I was HUNGRY. When we finally got home with the kids and situated i threw 3 red baron pizzas in the oven and ended up eating 3 slices- luckily they are small. Then we sat out and enjoyed the evening - the boys playing catch, the princess dancing to the radio and the hubs and I sitting leisurely. But I had no work out, and I can feel it. So what am I going to do about that now? I'm gonna get my sweat on!

Here are a few motivational posters that I saw on Pinterset ( I love that site) that spoke to me. I hope that they speak to you and help push you off the couch and into a sweat.



 

 

Thanks for stopping by- I hope you have a great week.

TTT- with pictures!!

1. got a much needed fill yesterday (.5cc)  hope it helps with the excessive hunger

2. went to my first lap band support group the other night- I will be back, but there are a few whiny ones there that I could do without- i have to remember that it take all kinds in this world.

3. because of my fill yesterday I didn't get to go to the gym and i wasn't up to walking on the treadmill so it was a day of rest.

4. i did get to the gym today and it felt good.

5. after the gym i stopped by the store and somehow the Skinny cow cookie dough ice cream bars landed in my cart along with the weight watchers candy bar ice cream bar.... amazing how that happened (btw the skinny cow bars are tasty)

6. am i the only one that gets "attached" to people through their blog? I mean seriously, we put our inner most thoughts onto a blog that we allow total strangers to read. I feel an actual sense of friendship and trust with my fellow blogger.

7. I have signed a deal with the PTA devils- in return for getting the princess into the Pre-k program at the school I have in turn volunteered to be the President. anyone else a PTA mom?

 

 

8. since i seem to the only one who has yet to post a post-workout pic here is mine for the day

9. I really should be cleaning but whats the point, my boys will be home in a few hours and it will be a mess again.

10. with my fill yesterday the doctor told me my BMI had dropped almost 10 points... and in a few more pounds I would be "normal" - woohoo!

 

 

well that's all for now- I guess I will at least go put a load of laundry in just to say i did something domestic today.

 

Hope you're having an awesome day

Tanks for stopping by.

 



the princess and her specks

**update- just back with the princess and her new glasses. She was so excited to get them but now wants nothing to do with them... it's a pretty heavy prescription so she has to get used to them. Anyone else have little ones that wear glasses? Any tips you can share with me?
I know this wasn't a WLS blog but I do thank you in advance for any help.

Weigh In Day

Another 3.6 pounds GONE! bringing me to 163.8.... getting closer and closer to the 150's.

My back has been hurting since Sunday coincidentally the day after date night with hubby ;)
anyways, went to the gym today and took it easy, kinda- did the treadmill and the elliptical and then did some standing abs work followed by cleaning at home and rearranging my daughters room- again. All in all burning 706 calories.

Tonight I will be going to my first Lap Band support group- last week was the emotional support group. I will let you know how it goes.

Well I'm off again to get the princess from pre-k and then to pick up her new glasses- the trick will be trying to have an almost 4 yr old wear them

Hope you having a great day. Thanks for stopping by.

just a few pictures

I have always avoided the camera- why? Because it doesn't lie. So I had to really look to find pictures of me, and it is really sad because I don't have a lot of pictures with me and my kids.. but that is going to change.

Feb 2012

 

June 2012

 

August 2012

 

October 2012

 

Feb 2013

 

Today- April 20

 

Today, April 20

(yeah, the hair is wonkey- but look ma, one chin!)

 

 

 

The hubs and I went to Sweet Tomatoes tonight without children- it was so nice. I did go a  bit over board but not enough to get me stuck or sick.  Not sure how to record everything I ate so I'm not and I will get back to logging tomorrow.

 

Hope you're all having a great weekend. Thanks for stopping by.

 



 

Friday wrap up

This week started out slow with no motivation; my get up and go had got up and went without me.
Tuesday, weigh in day was a gain on the scale... never a fun thing to see those numbers that you thought you had said good bye to forever.
Thursday I finally got my butt to the gym - 2 hours and 700 calories later I felt good and even saw an all time low on the scale (scale whore) of 164.4 ; I hope it stays down for my official weigh in on Tuesday.
Today was spent running errands; went to the DMV to register the new mom mobile, then a disastrous drive to get my hair cut (ended up driving all over town to find my hair dresser- damn smart phone sent me to the wrong salon that or I put in the wrong address either way my smart phone should have known. Finally got my hair cut, it had been since before my surgery since my last cut unless you count my butchering my bangs in a desperate attempt to keep some control. My hair dresser is wonderful; I have know her since before she went to beauty school. She was so thrilled when I got there- she said she hardly recognized me. She fixed up my hair- shorter than I really like but all the dead is gone, now I just need to slap some fresh color on it- I have 2 inches of regrowth... so not sexy.
Finally on my way home I stopped at Wallyword to get some milk and decided while I was there to try on a few things. I have bee trying to avoid this just to keep from spending money that I will hopefully have to downsize eventually. I tried on 3 dresses... one was a XL16/18 and that was too big. Then I tried on a L 12/14 it fit perfectly and then a Junior size 17 and that also fit great. The next thing was jeans- I tried on a 14... way too baggy so I tried on a 12 holly shit they fit! so I had to buy them, they jumped into my cart and wouldn't budge, and of course I needed a new shirt to finish it off... I actually felt slim (still trying to slim down the tummy rolls) but I looked good in it... It has been a while since I can honestly say that. (I will post a pic tomorrow, just have to dig up a before pic, I have always stayed away from the camera)
With all the running around today I did pretty good food wise; I packed a meal bar to keep me from making a drive through mistake, but I should have packed more water- live and learn.
Tomorrow night I have a date with the hubbs, got rid of the kids and everything! Sexy Time Can Commence without interruption! Sunday I will get to sleep in- not sure what I'm more excited for, sexy time or sleeping in.
Well that's my week. How was yours? Just remember a bad day does not define you progress. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off and keep going.
Have a great weekend. Thanks for stopping by.

Wendsday waistland

Well I have been in sloth mode today, yet again. The wind and cold has just put a hitch in my giddy up. Not to rub it in, but here in Vegas we had been enjoying wonderful spring like weather (80's) and then Mother nature decided that we needed a little taste of winter.  Yesterday I was not happy with my weight gain but instead of picking myself up I decided to lay down and shovel in the sugar...oh the headache I had last night was so not worth it. So today I am back on track- with the exception of going to the gym... my little binge from yesterday has caused me to stay close to a bathroom... I know TMI.
So far today I have had a smoothie for breakfast and tuna salad for lunch with 2 strawberries and tonight is pasta with sweet Italian sausage (turkey) I will be focusing on the sausage and sauce and then hopefully I will drag my lazy butt off the couch and onto my treadmill.

I am officially 20 weeks out from surgery, 5 months- it has flown by. I have learned so much from all of you and I am thankful that we have each other.

Thank you for stopping by. I hope you have a great day.

weigh in day

Not entirely happy with it but here are my numbers- a gain of 1.4 pounds bringing me up to 167.4 - I blame hormones and water weight and snacking just a little too much. but that's OK- everyday I am given the chance to do better and I will. I am still in the 160's so I am happy- but I know I can do better and I will.

I went and saw my primary doctor the other day- he was soo happy for me. I have lost 50 pounds since he last saw me in September. He of course is running labs to make sure all my levels are good but he says that they should be. But he did put me back on my BP meds, but a much smaller dose and he upped my happy pills.... oddly enough with the weight loss I find myself in more funks than before- might be a head game thing, but regardless I am more irritable and having a hard time with my vast range of emotions so he's upping the meds. I go back in 2 months to see him and see how things look.

I have another week till I get another fill and I'm sure that will help with the eating. Last time I only got a little smidge... I think this time I may need a little more than that- we shall see.

Also- i couldn't help but think of all my fellow bloggers yesterday, especially the ones who go and run marathons. My heart aches for those who have been affected by this horrible senseless act of violence. I pray for peace and understanding during this time.

Friday fustration

Last night was a headache- an entirely different post in itself- lets just summarize it by saying I didn't get a nap yesterday, went to bed at 11:30 didn't fall asleep until 12;30 just to wake up to me phone at 3:30a for a family emergency - got back home at 6am and have been on the go since- 3 hours of sleep is not cutting it for me- besides a scale whore I am a sleep whore too.
I am anxiously waiting for nap time (sometimes being a stay at home has its benefits.) But because I have to be up (i have a 3 year old Tasmanian devil aka the Princess) to make sure the house stays standing I have been eating- I know I am not hungry but TOM is here and all I want is to sleep and eat. I had a meal bar at 6:30 this morning then I didn't eat until 12:30 where I had a 10 piece chicken nugget and fruit parfait followed by a weight watchers fudge pop then a sugar free fudge pop and finally a coconut almond fiber one bar. I know better- plus I blew off going to the gym for the only 30 minute slot I had available- I just can't get myself to get in the car to drive there let alone get on a treadmill and walk.
I am hoping that I will be able to get in bed early tonight but the hubby and the boys are going to a ball game leaving me with the Princess so I doubt that will happen.
So I ask ya, am I the only one who eats just to stay awake? As I type this I find myself dozing... but at least my mouth is empty.
I will need to make a point of exercising a bit more this weekend to make up for my sloth like condition.

What about you, any big plans this weekend? Whatever you do make sure to get your sweat on.

thanks for stopping by.

my fist support group.

I went to my first support group last night- it was the Emotional Support group held at my surgeons office. They hold their groups once a month so I do plan on going back next month. It was so nice to sit face to face with others who have been where I am, seen what I have seen, felt what I have felt. It was great to be able to sit and share and give advice based on where we have been. Don't get me wrong, I get that here in blogland- and I made a point to mention that at the meeting last night; but this was different- to actually see the person and their emotions. It helped me feel more connected to the WLS community. Don't worry I'm not going anywhere, I love to read and get inspired from each and everyone of you.
They also have groups for nutritional support followed by yoga, weight loss support, and groups geared towards each surgery. I will definitely be taking advantage of these resources.
I highly suggest that you look into going to a group meeting too if they are readily available. I honestly don't know why I waited so long.

But I do have to say that there was one particular woman there who I was just baffled by- and not in a good way. She had reached onederland and had plateaued- we've all been there at one time or another, right. She says she exercises every day for 2 hours a day and she said she has never measured out her food. She is a sleeve patient, so I'm not too familiar with all that as I am a bandster, but it was suggested that she switch up her routine, try something different and to start measuring her food... she turned her nose up so fast at that suggestion she almost got whiplash. She has tried everything and nothing has worked... well if it were me I would take any suggestion I could to help drop more weight and stay in onderland.
I guess that's just my crazy mindset to try just about anything to help me use the tool to the best advantage.

Well thats about all for now- I did get to the gym today and burnd 720 calories- I am awesome! I am trying to keep myself positive and happy as TOM is quickly apporaching and I loath it along with the moods and cravings it brings with it. I did cave to the chocolate demons and had a fiber one brownie...but now all I want to do is sit with the enitre box and chow down.... ugghhh

Anyways- hope you're all having a good week and getting your sweat on.
thanks for stopping by.

Weigh In Day!

today is weigh in day- as some of you may recall last week I had a 1 pound gain, well I kicked that pound to the curb along with some of it's friends - this week I have dropped 5 pounds!!!! your read that right 5 pounds! Take that you evil Easter candy! That brings me to 166 even!

 I am 1 pound away from 50 gone since my surgery and I am almost at my 5 month bandaversay. WOW! I am so impressed with myself I want to celebrate- but not with food....maybe with a little pampering for me- i think I deserve it!
I also kicked my own ass at the gym today- shredded 720 calories and it feels great!

I hope you got your sweat on today- remember sweat is fat crying.

Have a great week. Thanks for stopping by.

Motivational Monday

I was feeling rather sloth like today due to the weather and PMS and wasn't even considering going to the gym but when my mother in law called and asked if I wanted her to watch the princess so I could go I actually jumped at it. It was a good thing- it helped give me a little boost of energy. And if the scale holds till tomorrow I will be (scale whore remember) 3 pounds from the 50 pound mark  since surgery. So hopefully I can drop them not by tomorrow but by the next weigh in. (why the rush) well it's not really a rush- I will drop them hopefully sooner than later, but I do have a doctors apt with my primary doctor the following week and it would be great if I were 50 pounds thinner. He hasn't seen me since a month before my surgery. So this week that is my motivation this week.

 

So what is your motivation for the day? week? month? year?

 

Oh and did you read this on MSN? A woman who had lap band had gone from 329 to 189 and decided she liked being fat over thin so she had it removed and is back up to 280-  I mean more power to ya but after all the time and effort to get the band and lose the weight to toss it aside like a used tissue is baffling- what do you think about it?

http://now.msn.com/diane-wiggett-has-gastric-band-removed-because-she-is-happier-fat?ocid=vt_fbmsnnow

Thanks for stopping by, oh and welcome to all my new "followers". Also thank you for all the comments about my fur baby, it really meant a lot to me; having this blog really does help in matters other than lap band and for that I am thankful and thankful for all of you.
Hope your having a great start to your week. And always remember.....

I need an A.P.B on my B.O.O.B.S

At one point I wore a 42F at Fredrick's of Hollywood- then to a at Lane 44DD now a 42DD but I noticed today that I no longer fill out the cups. I have always liked my breast size and I knew that with the weight loss I would probably loss weight up top too but it was as if I lost them overnight.
My ever encouraging husband, and I say this in the most positive way says that they are still nice. Nice?!? Then he followed it up with "well when you go back to work we can save up to get you a boob job".... so they went from Nice to being traded in for a newer firmer model. I'm not sure how I feel about all that- There is the old saying of growing old gracefully but if I'm not careful I'm gonna trip over my saggy boobs one day.

Anyone else losing their girls? How do you feel about it? I'm happy to be losing weight but not the girls. Am I'm just being silly about all this?

Thanks for reading. Hope you have a great week.

Saturday blues

Yesterday was one of the hardest and emotional days of my life. We put our dog of 16 years down. Her hips were shot, she had arthritis in her spine, blind in one eye and partially blind in the other, and going deaf. She had lost control of her bowels and there wasn't really anything that could be done. For a larger breed dog, Shepard/lab mix her getting to 16+ was an accomplishment in itself. She will forever be my fur baby and I will forever love her.

My Cookie Monster

 

 

Thanks for reading. 

weigh in day

I'm not gonna lie- when I got on the scale first thing this morning it showed a 2 pound gain but then I went to the gym came home and got on again and that time it showed only a 1 pound gain so I'm going to stick with that one :)  that brings me to 171 even. still in the 170's hoping that next week I can say goodbye to them forever.
Did you notice I went to the gym? It was so good to be back- stayed for 2.5 hours and burned over 900 calories. Now to work on the food intake and keep myself on track along with getting all my protein in and taking my vitamins... I have gotten pretty lazy when it comes to that. My already thin hair is getting thinner- yuck. Hoping that getting in my protein will help with this but I think I'll add a prenatal to help.
A gain in weight sucks but I'm not going to let this little pound derail my efforts. I will get back on track and get back to shedding those pounds.
Thanks for stopping by- hope you got your sweat on today.

Motivational Monday!

I have to get back on track- I have been eating way too much, damn it why am I such a good cook? :)
And then there is the evil sugary goodness the Easter rodent left... I love me some jelly beans... its the only bean I like.
I have been feeling so cruddy lately and I know it's because I have been eating too much sugar and too much in general and I haven't done any real physical activity.
OK- No more excuses, I feel better- the bronchitis is gone, the kids are back in school so I am heading back to the gym tomorrow. I can't wait- it's weird that I actually miss it.
Summer is coming and I will go to the pool this year with my kids... no more staying couped up in the house.
Here's my new motivation.

hope you have a great start to the week. thanks for stopping by.